Pain... in my back.
It's been awhile since I've written anything on here. Life's been a bit, well, busy to say the least. I plowed headlong into a new job and am overworked and underpaid, but I'm sure most of us can say that about our jobs. As some of you know, I left the Army a few years ago when my back could no longer take the abuse the military often required of our bodies. The first job I had after I left gave me the flexibility to work within my limits. Not anymore. This job I have now is reminding me of that pain. I took this job out of desperation after being unemployed for a couple months, knowing that I was more than qualified while taking a smaller rate in pay, and knew it would be more demanding of me.
After three long months, I'm finding myself at a crossroads. The pain in my back is constant. From my neck to my back, my knees, and at times I lose feeling in half of my right hand. I'm not sure how much more I can take.
I keep telling myself, that pain is weakness leaving the body. That without pain there's no gain. I should be expecting a windfall anytime now.
I need to take care of my family, though. Whatever it takes.